when i showed up to training camp back in july i had no idea what i was doing. the plan was that i would train a group of college kids for eight days. i’d love them, pray for them, put … Continue reading
i’ve shed my fair share of tears in public places.
over coffee with people who asked hard questions. in hotels and restaurants around the world when i missed my family. in kelly’s office more times than i can count. one night during a class in college i was crying so hard i had to leave.
i guess it’s just kind of my thing. i cry. good things. bad things. happy. sad. angry. it’s how i emote and how i process.
this week i parked myself at kentucky fried chicken a few times. i’ve been catching up on blogs, emails, finances and facebook. i’ve talked with some of my favorites and caught up what life looks like both here and there. yesterday i hung up with one of those favorites and i burst into tears.
i’m not entirely sure why.
there’s nothing wrong. things in honduras are great. my squad is amazing and i’m absolutely loving leading them. the lord is taking me to new places in him, continuing to remind me that i’m a daughter and that’s enough. things with my co-leader are good. i’m not upset about anything. i’m not missing home any more than i normally do. i don’t feel (too) stressed about the future or unsure of what’s going to come next. i don’t feel particularly overwhelmed by things.
and yet, the tears still came. but in a cleansing kind of way. in a way that brings release and actually helps you breathe a little bit easier. it was the refreshing kind of cry. the kind that reminded me that i’m loved and missed and known. the kind that makes you thankful for the people waiting for you. the people you can count on.
it was a good cry. even if it was in kentucky fried chicken.
i know that i’m not allergic to wasps because i’ve now been stung by two of them in less than twenty four hours. the first one attacked me right on the nose. i cried like a baby and then put wet tobacco on my face. my nose isn’t, as allison would say, quite as gross today as it was yesterday.
despite the wasps, life in honduras continues to be great. we’ve developed so many strong relationships with the hondurans and it will be a sad day when our squad leaves here in a few weeks. thank you for all of your continued prayers and support. we couldn’t do any of this without you!
in the last three years i’ve trekked to eighteen different countries. i’ve been a part of many different ministries. i’ve talked to and prayed for a countless number of people. i’ve seen churches, red light districts, four of the seven … Continue reading
several years ago i was quite the dreamer, the idealist, and the anything is possible-ist. then i went on the world race. and i walked away from countless situations that weren’t any different when i left than when i walked … Continue reading
i’m still not exactly sure how it all happened. it was one of those sweet ministry moments that wasn’t planned or expected. it didn’t happen during a scheduled ministry time, no one was preaching or praying; but god showed up … Continue reading