david, katie, brian and i have been staying with team willow in chanthaburi, thailand. we’ll be here for almost a week before we head back to bangkok and i have to get on a plane and say goodbye next week.
yesterday we drove in the back of a truck for about three hours so that we could attend a celebration for a church that was opening up their new building. we were greeted with smiles and ushered to dinner where we were served a nine course meal. of course we were asked to sing a rousing rendition of “lord i lift your name on high.” people took pictures with us and of us and we were given gifts; screen printed hand towels. we enjoyed ourselves and were thankful to be a part of something so special.
and then we had to get back in the truck. and we had to drive three hours home. and it was freezing cold. it was the most uncomfortable i have been in a really, really long time. eight of us laying on top of each other, huddled together trying to stay warm. those hand towels came in handy as little blankets that helped block the wind.
so, there i was. really, really uncomfortable. except, in the middle of it, there was also some sweetness. there was a starry sky. a cuddle sesh with some of my favorites. extra squeezes when we went over bumps. there were laughs and screams and sighs of relief when we finally made it home. for all of the uncomfort, i couldn’t help but be thankful that this was life. because how many times will i get to sit in the back of a truck in thailand?
and then i started thinking about how uncomfortable the next several weeks are about to feel. leaving the people i’ve fallen in love with. figuring how to fit back in to certain molds…again. feeling like i’m missing out. making adult decisions and adult plans for my life. it’s hard and doesn’t feel good. but. there is sweetness in it, too. there are stars in the sky and christmas celebrations to be had. there are cuddle sessions with other favorites that are long overdue and coffee that’s brewing. uncomfortable? you bet. but there is sweetness and goodness to be found in the midst of it. and i’m determined to find all of the gifts the lord has hidden away. even if i’m looking for them through tears.